tears like the lake I never visited in my grandfathers forest.
tears I hide
tears I will never regret
because I need them to protect my eyes
so I can say goodbye.
I remeber those days you somehow dissapeared.
I remember thinking it was not normal feeling the way I felt when you returned.
sad and happy and a bit relieved to see you at the same time
Relieved I see you again, and gelous, like a teenager. And feeling unfit for it.
I was not entitled to feel it. But my heart has no rules. Has no social guidelines. It just is.
If I would try to make her be some other way
I am too big for you to hold me