morning conversation

missing

morning conversations

where your tone of voice 

seemed to rule the world 

seemed to make it better 

more structured and more clear 

missing 

the determination I felt in your voice

the way I always wanted to end the conversation, sooner than I would have need it 

because my heart became too anxious 

missing the anticipation of your calls 

with no other expectations than that to hear your thoughts. Not clearly but how you build them like lego towers made me smile as I knew, I sensed it is rare for you to share. 

missing the way I used to wake up 

first to see my kids, my family is fine.

second to see when and where 9 or almost 9 will catch me.  

image

Tired of all that is said but untrue and pretended and just image portrayed as reality.  Tired. 

lack of judgement

my lack of judgement 

sometimes is extreme 

I don't know where it comes from. 

It comes from emotion, most probably. 

That I will never regret. 

So accepting lack of judgement some days.

naiva

sunt un om naiv

am incredere in oameni

la o intrebare directa o sa raspund mereu 

sincer. Mai ales daca tin la omul din fata mea. 

Chiar daca e o intrebare personala. 

Sunt un om naiv, caci gasesc frumusete in fiecare zi si in fiecare om. 

Silence and machine learning

Silence of the gods 

in an apocalyptic future where machinery and machine learning will ensure a hybrid survival 

The stakes are so high that pretending that nothing but yoghurt or milk exists is the most natural thing to do. 

winery

one day you left in a carousel

it was raining so hard that the sky become yellow,

and the stars were hidden behind the curtains of ice and smoke. 

left for a winery not so far away 

in a carriage filled with people that admire you and most probably some days don't like you. As it is normal. 

 

that night 

the sky reunited with the God of Thunder. And they danced and sang all night. 

And my thought was with you. 

To return well, 

for you need to be as you are. 

mixed

Controversial feelings. 

Of wanting to be closer, maybe closest and of wanting to not desire anything of sorts. 

Looking to avoid and missing you, when not around.