silenced beautiful heart

stayed too much in between worlds 

waiting and wondering and dreaming

I have seen the trees at a distance, trees to climb

but never have I run towards them, 

as in the other part of the road I had my heart waiting for another heart to join 

a heart I felt in the distance 

a tall heart, brave and unapologetic one 

that only by sensing at a distance made me stop and contemplate 

as it is a beautiful heart, a silenced heart, a heart filled with desires and a kind loving heart, 

never mine to cherish. 

time to climb the trees. 

unkind words

glowing in the dark 

the words imagined are the ones that hurt the most 

the words your own abis feeds you with

when you think nobody is looking 

coming from a place of invisible structure.

fantasy

finally I take a turn towards normality 

finally I overcome something that kept me still, kept me waiting

finally I start to let go 

of a fantasy I cared deeply about

but still a fantasy in itself. 

nothing else to say

my tremble hands 

my tremble voice  

my mind is telling me 

I need to say goodbye. 

tension

tension i need to depose

tension stuck in my chest

tension that intensifies in your pressence

physical tension I am not used to as my mind is my hardest worked muscle. 

 

 

nothingness

nothingness I know from long time youngest love

nothingness shared on a bench in Cismigiu 

nothingness that seemed at one point something 

lost nothingness. 

misinterpreted

my thoughts are rebels in an empire well guarded. 

Action is the only one that surrenders lack of being.  

Misinterpreted interest. Misunderstood. Nothingness I fell for.