shadows

inside a woman 

a man resides 

her ideal masculine self 

it is towards him 

letters were written 

from 12 to 15 of age

it is towards this man, usually strong and beautiful, smart and kind 

her dreams have opened up like flowers in spring 

and she carries this image with her 

sometimes all her years 

sometimes if she is lucky 

up to the moment she feels reality will never be a dream 

and should never be one. 

reality is messy as a real man and a woman are, 

but she has the force inside to still smiles at that dream, of that little girl.